can't wait....

Paypay Jai is coming to UK very soon!!!!!can't wait to go out with her IN THE UK!

have to say though, this planning really stresses me out cos i want to try to plan it the best i can so that pay pay can go to most places that she wants to without having a moment of stress.  I want to make sure she'll have a stress-free and happy time to remember.

so it's all worth the stress for me before pay pay arrives hehehe.... let's hope that nothing will go wrong after my planning. 

fingers crossed

Why am I always on my own?

I feel like crying...

Why can I never express myself???  Everytime when i tried to express... i had to hold back... to stop causing further arguments.  May be the way I express my feelings is too direct...I hurt ppl's feelings???

I guess the best thing that I can do is to stop putting my words across... just listen and agree.  This way, everyone will be happy... and for myself... I have high EQ anyway, I am good at supressing my feelings... so i'll be ok.

WAHAAAAAAAAAAAY....

I've FATTENED!!!  I've been eating some JUNK lately... it really works!!!  bisucuits and chocs and late night eating...... wow... that really helps....

I've gained a few kgs....hehehe... happy happy joy joy...

My target is to gain another half a stone, that'll be my dream weight.  but then i hope i won't keep gaining after that hahaha.... we'll see!!!

had chat with LK... he is super duper stressed!  I really understand why and what stresses him but I know I can never understand how he feels - I bet it is 1000000000000 x my stress level.  Ai....

This bloody case is causing us a lot of pain and grief... I worry LK sooooooooo super much but I really dunno how to express.  I tried to explain but it sounded like I was angry or shouting at LK... but the truth is.... worry and care a lot.  I was just so stressed and worry sick... now I don't think he'll ever tell me how he feels lu...., which makes me even more worry...

STAY STRONG!